​I wanted nothing more than to take a big fat nap when I got home from work. Why does daylight savings time exist? What about saving night time? That is when I feel more productive.
The reason I feel so tired could be the fact that I traveled last week
​ and came back with a soueviner of nasal allergies. 
Damn that mountain air.
Since I've been back home I've had two servings this week of Trader Joe's Thai Green Curry frozen meals.
My sinus have cleared a path like Moses.

I visited Palm Springs with my sister and friend Sarah. I much needed escape to somewhere sunny. 
They say it never rains in Souther California, but it managed to rain for a couple hours during our trip.
The trip was nothing more than alot of wandering. This is exactly what I needed, no plans, except for the advance ticket to ride the Aerial Tramway and a night at a Drag Show.

                                    Staring at a mountain while drinking my morning coffee was the type of zen I needed. No where to be. No plans.                                       And nothing to really report. Just alot of thinking about not thinking. P.S. I love you Palm Springs.

""I didn't have time to be anyone's muse, I was too busy rebelling against my family and learning to be an artist." -Leonora Carrington

What's wrong with being your own muse? 
Most famous muses have often been artists in their own right and usually have been outshined by their more famous lover/partner/collaborator. Does the name Yoko Ono ring any bells? She probably could be considered one of the most infamous muses of all time. Music history associates her as the muse who broke up one of the biggest bands in the world but we often don't think twice about her work as a performance artist. She was her own muse.

When I started out as an artist, I used myself as my own muse. I was teaching myself how to paint and using my own image to learn how to paint. Pure and simple.

It's easy to think that one who uses themselves as a source of inspiration could be considered as a self-centered individual. But I disagree. Yes there are plenty of narcissistic folks in this world who fall into the trap of self-obsession. I'm not talking about those                                                                                     people. 

​I'm inspired by artists and characters who have the confidence to say, "I've got something to share with the world and I'm going to use myself as the vessel." 

My new favorite miniseries is Daisy Jones a​nd the Six on Amazon.
​It follows fictional musicians in the sixties who are trying to make a name for themselves. 

My new favorite "anti-muse" is the character Daisy Jones played by Riley Keough. Without giving too much away, Daisy is inspired to take the helm for her career in music and lets men of entertainment industry know that she is NOT a source for THEIR inspiration. She's her own muse.
You tell 'em!

These inspiring women, real and fictional, gave me the green light to continue on my anti-muse path by being the influence for myself.